Truth

its funny how people walk around without spilling the truth that pours from their souls.  What if we all had a cloud above our head that said what we were really feeling. Instead we hold it inside until it starts to bubble over like a saucepan full of pasta. Its fine one minute and the next you look and its overflowing, unstoppable unless you lower the heat or remove it from the stovetop.

If the cloud were above my head it would read: "irish girl..creative, brunette, love my husband and son, sometimes son drives me insane, other times I look at amazement at the miracle he is, love the movie theatre, i work to pay the bills, my money doesn't do much but it helps. We basically live on one income and yes in debt, like so many of you who don't admit it, come from family of suceeders, sometimes feel like the black sheep, bought too big of a house,but hey is any house affordable now adays? love to drink wine, love alone time, love my friends and really love my friends who don't hear from me but know its not because of them but because of stuff I'm going through, sometimes life really really really sucks. Outside influences drag you down and your responsible for stuff that you don't want to be responsible for.
Sick of selfish people, sick of feeling guilty, sick of sometimes feeling sick.
Love love Love....animals, painting, gardening, music,water,yoga, GOD
they bring me peace and tranquility. They never judge, argue, demand "TRUE FEELINGS", they just accept you where you are and what you are feeling and offer you acceptance in that place.

I was thinking the other day how one of the things I love about Randy is he NEVER judges me. He accepts me everyday how I am, what i'm feeling, what I dream and aspire. He reads my soul and knows without me trying to explain. (ok we are not talking about putting the dishes in the dishwasher, yes there are some limitations of men :). But overall, I can count on him. It just works and its easy. I've heard sayings that "relationships aren't easy...they take work"..ya i get it in some sense, there have been up and downs in our relationship but overall...truth the shit we have been through, heck ya its been easy.  How many of your relationships can you say are easy? How many can you say you don't ever feel judged?  How many have been through the stressful ringers of life and have lived through it?
I just really wish the world would be more truthful. Admit when it sucks so we can offer support to those having a hard time. its a revolver, sometimes its great and sometimes it sucks. the good thing is it always turns and you know you get through it and it gives you the gift of wisdom.
Suck it up, live the truth....