This week is a melancholy mix. I had the approval to work from home for a few days because my son has spring break. Coinciding with that we have had some beautiful mild spring weather. I caught a slight whiff of spring flowers enveloping the air yesterday. The birds fluttering among my bushes waving their friendly wings in a hello fashion. Its been warm enough for the windows to be open, the awakening April air pushing out winters stale doldrum air.
This time working from home has allowed me to rest, I'm driving frantically back and forth to work and school Its calmer and quiet. I can sip my coffee from my favorite ceramic mug instead of the cold plastic to go cup.
It has allowed me to look out the window and take a deep breath, it has allowed me sit with my feelings, it has allowed me to laugh with my son.
And wrapped in all those things I'm grateful for is a sad tearful melody that plays out from my heart. A missing of a person I had started to get close with who recently lost his father. We haven't known each other long, we were not serious but I miss his presence. I miss the way time seemed to slow down slowly pouring its sand down the spout of the hourglass. The way his laughter was contagious and brought me out of my serious inner depths of thinking. Its times like these that you wonder what the universe had in store with the whole thing. I keep being told to have patience. And so I wait..but I also wait with a sadness.
