Money stress

I stress about money constantly because we are still digging our way out but then I was reminded tonight that a few years ago... We lost money on the sale of our old house, our <now> house payment was $500 a month higher before we refinanced (how the heck were we doing that????), we had 2 major surgery bills ( miscarriage and broken nose) and Randy's company was put in furlough. And we made it through.... God ALWAYS pulls you through and gives you the grace to look back and say, wow how did we do that?  

  It gives me the freedom to realize that it's not that I'm horrible with my money, it's that life gave us some 'shit' but we are climbing out if it with HIS help every passing day.  Sometimes I need to be reminded to climb out of my selfish he and realize HE always has my best interest at heart if I just let HIM take charge. 

High expectations always turn sour

I'm grumpy today and its Mother's Day when we should be grateful. A large part of it is the fact that I have to work a floorset tonight and I'm not looking forward to it. Also I always have these high expectations that Randy is going to do something fun and different. Why does he even ask me what I want if he does the same thing. My favorite flower is tulips but I never get those, I tell him i love cake balls but I never get those, breakfast in bed, a handmade cd, a poem, but no- I get an iTunes giftcard that I could buy myself. Lamoooooo!!!

  I just put too high expectations that he going to magically turn romantic and it's never going to happen. Last night I just wanted him to GO with Alan and I, so we could have a family night and he just wanted to stay home and drink beer. 

  I just want him to LISTEN to what I want  but he never does that.  It must be Hunan nature that we just always set ourselves up for higher expectations then someone is willing to give us and so disappointment follows. Why do we do that to ourselves, even knowing we are doing it?

Ask and it shall be given to you

I was getting this scripture the past few days and guess what today's Gospel was!
I believe I am entering a new realm of believing that. All this time I've have been wondering why Randy's parents can't get the house loan readjusted and I think, Randy needs to believe it will work or his parents need to believe it will work. Maybe the reality is I need to believe it will be given to them, if I ask and truly believe.