extinguished..when I ponder about this word I think of putting a fire out. Often fires can be harmful and dangerous and so extinguishing them is a good thing. In my case its my soul's energy that feels that way right now. I feel like I'm giving so much to all of those around me that I'm just depleted. I have felt this way in the past esp when my son was younger and maybe I'm feeling it more now because he is out of school and my time with him is nonstop.
Its more then that though, I'm dealing with a change of tides with family. Things have shifted and now I have to take on a role that I have been absent from for many years. And quite honestly its exhausting. I'm working more hours, I'm caring for my family, I'm housekeeping, and I'm trying to be there for sisters and friends going through rough times and I just feel like I'm reaching that point of dried up coffee filter paper. I feel like at this point in my life is when you have to really start saying no to people. It was easier when we are younger because our time is not as consumed by life's busyness. Now is when all the tides come together and crash. You just have to say no, I can't do that, no I can't help, no I am not available. But saying no is hard, esp for someone like me who cares deeply for all of those around me and wants to help.
How can I be my best helpful self when I'm depleting all the energy I have which therefore makes me more grouchy with my son and husband. I just wish someone could teach me how to live this busy life we are now a part of and make it work without feeling exhausted.
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ReplyDeleteHi Point4.
ReplyDeleteI like your blog! It's real and honest.
If your family and friends aren't stepping in to help take care of you by offering the rest and comfort you need; take the time for yourself. Every parent and spouse feels just as you do, but few are honest enough to say that they are exhausted by them. A massage, spa, lunch with a non-needy friend, art show or whatever recharges you is needed to get you back to healthy, then take that time for yourself. I, as many, was raised where we care for others and others then care for you. Although it sounds good, it rarely happens, so take care of you, the most important person in your life. Trust me everyone will appreciate you revived once more. As I've recently learned, by a very sweet friend, you are truly a special person so be sure to treat yourself like one!
:-)