Shooting and abortions

     Our we a society of hypocrites? The recent school shooting has many upset because a boy took the life of many innocent young children. Shall I raise the issue of (play dramatic music)abortion? Are we not taking the lives of many  young children? This is always a fun issue because people are so afraid to speak their mind. First of all, until you are pregant, you will not fully understand the issue. And yes I will say that and piss some of you off. I was one of them!  It's easy from a sideline view to spat out your views on pregnancy and abortion. But until you witness hearing the heartbeat of a little miracle in your belly then you really have no idea.
     I remember back in college, I thought I was pregnant. I sat in the waiting room to get a test and await the outcome. While sitting in the waiting room, I was thinking would I get an abortion? Mostly because I thought of how disappointed my family would be for getting pregnant, how upset society would be that I was ruining my college career.  I saw a little boy who was maybe three years old looking at me and the gaze he gave me decided my answer. I can't explain in words but it was like his soul spoke to me and I realized right then and there the amazing life of a child. I could not take an innocent life because of my own selfishness.
Luckily I was not pregnant and upon getting older I have realized, its very hard to get pregnant! And even when we do get pregnant, many times the pregnancy will not even go through. I wonder how many women have gone and had abortions and in the end their pregnancy would have ended itself anyways. 
     After being pregnant three times (and two ending in miscarriages) I have realized the amazing miracle of a child. That this little person evolves out of your genes, that it's a little you who grows up to have their own views and opinions.  Who are we to decide that they should not be a part of this world. How selfish of us to think that we know what is best for them. What if someone had decided we shouldn't have had the right to live?
     I have a friend that works with the youth group at her church. Her mother almost aborted her and she thanks her mother every day that she decided to keep her. We never know who that little person is going to grow up to become. How God is going to use that little soul.
     I also have many friends that would give  a million dollars for a baby but cannot get pregnant. There are SO many parents that would adopt these children.  Instead parents are left going over sea's and adopting children of other countries because our little babies aren't being born and given that chance.
     How is taking the lives of children at an elementary school by a mad mass shooter any different then our selfish decision to end the life of a child we haven't even met yet. Some argue the rape and incest cases and my heart goes out to someone in that predicament but even then, we shouldn't be the ones to play God on deciding if that little life is worth living or not. 
    I think we need to stop being so chicken on our stance. We say "well I wouldn't get an abortion but I think a woman should choose". What kind of cop out answer is that? The problem with our generation is we do not take responsibility for our actions. We want to have fun, without any repurcussions. If you would not take the life of your own child then you need to take that stance on the issue. 
    We need to educate women that are in the middle of the crisis. They aren't thinking logically, just as I was at one time. They are thinking of society, parents, job, etc.    There are so many programs to help women that they will not be left alone to fend the wolves themselves. We need to educate that ending the life of a baby doesn't just end with the day you leave the clinic. It will stay and haunt you for the rest of your life. I know two people in my life that had abortions and they can never let it go. It's a heavy burden to carry that you don't realize when your in the thick of it. It will morph into other areas of your life and destruct.
    This all ties into my post from yesterday about our values. I believe in God and I know that many of you do not and that is fine, I'm not going to argue with you because I can't change your mind. But he is real, he has brought me out of dark times of my life, he has given me grace, he has brought me peace, he has brought a good soul of a husband, an amazing child, a loving family. I have seeen his work through the people he passes through all the way to the yellow finches at my bird feeder.  Am I just on a God rambling post right now? No because it all ties together. When you believe in a higher power, you are going to be in one with the universe. You are going to see each life as precious, you will love in endless possibilites. Your values are going to be lined up so that you can handle what life throws at you. You are going to forgive the people around you just as God forgives us for the wrongs we do.
    Why make life any harder then it is? Why NOT have God in your life? All he does is help so why would you not want to have alittle extra help? That is what blows my mind and frustrates me. It's easier with him in it so why not?  Are you afraid of being loved so fully and perfectly?  What are you afraid of that you can't let him inside. Why do you think you need to "handle" life all on your own instead of alittle extra help from the big guy.  Life is really too short, I have already witnessed how physical illness will take someone quickly,  how greed rips a close family to shreds, and how our own pride can bind us up so tight that we can't see how simple life is.  May our eyes be unblinded and we fully see.