Why all this talk about healing? Because that has been my road for the past 9 years. I will start out by saying "I'm a mother of three."
What? A stranger would ask, but you have one son? Yes one living son. I had 2 miscarriages, one before and one after my full term pregnancy.
I do not say I have 3 children when people ask me because it would most likely lead to a question mark, confused, awkward explanation.
I know two moms who actively tell people they have " .." kids when both had pregnancies that failed. They both went full term but delivered babies stillborn. They took pictures of their lost babies, they mourned their lost babies, they talk to this day about their lost babies. Do I do that? No...
I mourned for a day or two and then was like "I'm fine",it was meant to be, etc. I've realized now that I have spent the past 9 years going through different stages of healing and I'm coming out on top.
Sometimes I'm bitter at those women that got to touch thier baby, see them, where as I was knocked out from anesthesia, wheeled to recovery and given pamphlets on what to expect for the next couple days. But other times I look at it as a blessing- to be surprised that in heaven one day, i will meet the babies I never knew.
I think what I've realized is given any circumstance, we can make it through the tough, that though everyone's situations are different, we all hurt in the same way. We can heal (though it takes time),we can look back and see the blessings amidst the rocky roads.
We are all strong when we need to be and we can get through anything that comes our way and come out on top. We need to have faith in our inborn spirit and not doubt ourselves or compare to others.
I am grateful for the path God chose for me and I am thankful for the healing along the way.
love you. thanks for sharing.
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