A certain situation happened this evening that makes me wonder what is the health of this relationship. Is this normal or not? It makes me feel unloved, it makes me feel disrespected, it makes me yearn for a time when only I could control what would make me feel those things. That's the bad thing about relationships, it gives the other person control to either lift you up or tear you down. Sometimes after awhile you get sick of being torn down and you just want to set sail on waters edge and drift away with the tide. Floating ever so slowly that it won't be noticed at first until one day you are far out in the water. Waves lapping gently over your side signaling the presence of peace and tranquility.
Peace...I heard something about peace at church today, I can't pinpoint what was exactly being discussed, I just know that it centered around peace. And from that is my favorite scripture about the peace that transcends all understanding. I was just reading a blog favorite of mine and the author spoke of the extreme peace and direction she was getting. It made me jealous because I feel as if I do not get either of those.
I yearn for a strong peace right now, and I don't feel like I have had it in a very long time.
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